faye's blog(:

Deprived and Disappinted

2009-08-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

Hey,im at http://fayelee.onsugar.com/
But,still be blogging here but not as often(:

No one knew me more than you do,

2009-08-05T05:07:00.000-07:00

Im seriously drained every single morning,i feel like im very feeable i didnt even had the energy to walkD: Came to school pretty early,yeah i was stonning there for quite some time till Yingxin came,today was pretty tired,drain and was very hectic infact.I had Teachers' day meeting after school till about 6.15pm,then saw Miss Teo then was talking to her and took the same LRT train with her back.I still have alot things undone
-Im stuck with two DnT reflection
-Teachers' day stuff
-Langarts homework
-Studying for tomorrow's Biology Test
Yeah alot right,so gonna get things done soonD:
Oh god someone save meD: Yeah,mum having mum swing she nags and scold at me im pretty annoyed but well i dont blame her cause i also had my moodswing once in a while.But,im being a nice daughter i didnt talk back,well that's what i can do right now.Yeah,off to do my stuff,blog soon:DD

I feel so breathless,

2009-08-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hello,Monday-blues didnt caught me today:D I swear Standardised test today sucks,i overshot the word limitD: Then,LCE lesson at one corner of the class there were horny laughters cause of the topic Mdm Jamaliah was discussing i swear it is really funny,not gonna share you guys find out yourself *Winks* Mathematics lesson pratically copying questions and doing those sums kind of bored.Then,Langarts class pratically very noisy,hard to concentrate.Biology class,yes it is chap27,which the class is urber high at my corner of the class we were damn noisy and high especially cause i have horny guys at my corner.Then,went to KFC with clique and Athira after school.Tomorrow's gonna be a better day,i wish.Disappointment one after another,what can i do but to support you.I seriously want to see you smile once again really.Life goes go anyway,dont you agree.Main point is that Faye Lee would be there for you,and to support you mentally:D Gonna go out on Friday if school ends early with Clique(L) and perhaps on monday.Sunday having event at Sengkang CC busywoman uh.haha
PS.Jaslyn Tan,will post THAT picture soon:DD
PS/Ignore my stupid face on my blogpost:D

World Just Hear Me Out;

2009-08-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

Yes,today finally came had outing with Backstreet-babies yeah came to an conculsion went to Punggol beach yingxin came to my house and meet me up first,yeah the guys took quite sometime so waited for them for quite longD: And meetup with Fitzgerald and Edwin went to Jaslyn's house her dad drove us to punggol beach all went except for ClementD: I was sun-tanning pratically and was taking alot of pictures,building sandcastles and playing along the beach.Yeah,cant expect an average of 14year old teenagers doing this kind of stuff,haha.After that met up with Clement at compass.Backstreet babies had dinner @KFC,yeah pratically laughing at clement's joke.Yeah,he's our laughing pill.Great day, but a pity didnt take group shotD: Perhpas next time,yeah went home with clement(:
Pictures will be up soon when Jaslyn send me:D

Summerlove got me so alive;

2009-07-31T05:34:00.000-07:00

Just woke up not long ago,due to my headache i gave CCA a missed.Had Panadol then had went straight to sleep after bathingD: I dont why im having headache perhaps weather isnt that good?Went to school early in the morning as usual and did Teachers' day stuff with Jaslyn went around to the sec4s' and 5 classroom i got alot of werid freaking reaction to Jaslyn heh,ask her she was laughing all the way:D Then,PE was kinda boring till i played Badminton with Elliot,Fitzgerald and Enrica.,i sucked so much at playing itD: Mathematics class was okay just that i did not understand gonna catch up on that on sunday with Tution teacher,then after school had a training was browsing around the Ecarrer website found alot of jobs,i was so tempted with the high-salary.Then,went back home after that,to rest then gonna see doctor if my headache carry on,but it's much better than the afternoon:D Looking forward to tomorrow's outing with clique(L) and tomorrow gonna give my family outing a missed:DD

Im Just another Subsitute;

2009-07-30T03:41:00.000-07:00

I have seriously lack of pictures so yeah post this picture,yeah all my pictures aint nice gonna take alot on Saturday with Clique(L) looking forward to that outing(: Today,school was normal but unexpectedly DnT was great with Mr Tan nice person to talk with while i was doing my DnT,he's a very humourous person:D Then,nothing much happen these few days was spending almost ever single second with Clique(L) I'll have a more detailed update on Saturday,i promise:D Blogskin and almost everything was changed:DD

2009-07-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

Happy 1st Month to my dearest clique!
love each and everyone of you dearly<3

Hello Liverpool;

2009-07-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

Yay,im currently having the liverpool craze pardon me hehe:D Mum says i looked like an number one fan of liverpool.My hearts with liverpool right now,okay enough of my liverpool craze.Yeah gonna study later after watching the liverpool football match.Tomorrow's is Cliques' second month yays:D Currently talking to Fizgerald watching the last ep of 敗犬女王 freaking nice okay.

Love Like This,

2009-07-17T01:22:00.000-07:00

Hah,finding it weird for me blogging?Currently at NgYingxin's house doing Home-Base learning:D After school,went to Cp with Yingxin and Co.then bought my ice-cream then that fitzgerald laugh at me when im eating ice-cream practically there's nothing wrong eating ice-cream but dont know why he keep on laughing then yeah i just throw it away but he find it more funny,lol.Yeah,she picked me up at hougang mall we take away food and eat at her house.Im doing Home-base Learning,Blogging,Watching敗犬女王, and eating Fried Hokkien mee at same time heh:D Tution yesterday was great but intensive it was my first tution session,yeah the teacher was friendly and yeah it was a private tution at my house.Yup,gonna entertain my NgYingxin and doing my stuff:D Stay tune i'll still update:D

Screw computer!

2009-07-15T01:47:00.000-07:00

Hey Readers!,
My computer currently broke downD:
So,wont be posting for a period.But keep your tags coming in:DD

F.Y.I/: currently at Yingxin's house for home-based learning thing. But came to find out teachers only gave us some retarded games-.- yeah wthD:

No boundaries,

2009-07-12T04:05:00.000-07:00

Today had First Aid duty at the POSB Run For Kids,woke up freaking early in the morning woke up at 5.30am in the morning then reach compass point at around 6.15am.Then,meet up with yingxin then a bus brought as to the stations.Paired up with Man Ting and Adeline at the First Aid Post.And yeah,we cam-whored cause there isnt anybody injured then the whole event ended around 9am then had Bee Hoon dont really like it kinda weirdD:

Yeah,then Jaslyn and yingxin came to my house and went down to my house's nearby playground and cam-whored.Then,went meetup with Cheryl for lunch:D

Well,i believe that i will get through this somehow,didnt expect those words from your mouth could hurt so much.Not gonna disappoint clique(L) i'll try my best to move on with life,perhaps you didnt mean it but i took it to heart because those words were said by youD: Im gonna be a happy biatch oh yes i will:DD

A biatch like me,dosen't need someone like you.

2009-07-10T18:43:00.000-07:00

School wasnt really great these few days so i didnt really post.Today's PE lesson was pretty okay measured height and weight,i shrunk for godness sake!The last time i measure my height was 157cm and i shrunk to 155cmD: But then,i lost weight *winks* im 53kg yeah,still fat as everD: Then,Chemistry lesson had pop quiz pretty unique the way Mdm Jamaliah gave that pop quiz.Then,Mathematics lesson i have got to catch mostly i dont understand the chapter.Langarts lessons,Miss Toh was pretty funny back then i was laughing quite as muchD: Then,it was raining after school went to compass with Athira,Yingxin,Jaslyn,Fitzgerald,Edwin and Ken to have lunch at KFC.Then,they went to my house nearby park to play,but pretty much i was very emotional didnt really played muchD: Then,they went back homed and i prepared for movie night out at with family went to Cathy at AMK hub watched Transformers2 i really enjoyed it alot,so does brother,daddy and mummy.Megan Fox is really hot manzx,then yeah i love Bumblebee(:

She's not gonna cry and get emotional over these kind of stuff anymore.She's gonna be a happy biatch!

Gotta get through this,

2009-07-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

我痛到忘了要怎么喊痛D:
6july,Monday
Went for bowling at kovan with clique w/o clement,yeah the outing not as fun without clement,then really tired after 3rounds of bowling didnt really played alot cause it always enter into the cutter.Yeah,the bowling is urber expensive i swear 5people,$38.20.For,i think less than 1hour and a half,yeah thank you fishy for paying:D Then,Jaslyn left at the MRT station,Fitzgerald went off with tution then,left only me,Yingxin and Edwin.Yingxin send me off to the bus stop:D
7july,Tuesday
School today was such a turnoff,3 of my classmates was down with fever how greatD: After school went to xinyee's house with Sybil&Caiyun,her dad drove us there and yeah his dad treat us chicken rice,super nice heh.Then,was talking with them and watch a television series with them,then Sybil,Me and Caiyun went off.Yeah,me and caiyun walked sybil omgosh you dont want to know what we saw many croakcroachesD: Me and caiyun trained back to SK,im so gonna stop my procasination alright. And yeah,my handphone rest in peace it's dead alright screw it manzx!

If we were a movie,

2009-07-05T05:21:00.000-07:00

I was seriously rotting at home half my day then called clique out yeah,then bused down to jaslyn's house.Then,i was seriously moodless then hah whenever clement is around i cant fail by laugh at his jokes hah,thanks:D Yeah,we went slacking at the playground then they were like playing catching at the playground since like there's nothing there todo,then a little kid approach us to play with us,hah that stupid clement says those werid thing i can do to that little kid.Then,it was drizzling we went to the Punggol Plaza sit at our usual spot then had our bubble tea,then we were like talking about Prom night and what we would do when we grow up,hah it seems so far i tell you.Almost all of them have their own ambitions but mine im still lost with itD: Cliques outing havent decide yetD;

Heartaches blended with regrets,

2009-07-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

I seriously wish that someone now will be here with me living through the emptiness and fear right now.Many things are on going it seems like im just someone that is useless alright.I feel like the whole world has abandoned me,have you ever feel the feeling of Mad ,Misery,Agony and crying all mixed together it's such a killer.My heart is heavy but i cant cry,seriously what's wrong with me now adays i dont even know it myself.I am trying to keep this feeling away and wont let it stays when school starts on tuesday cause i know it'll affect meD;
Thanks Clique(L)you guys have been trying your best to cheer me up,
but i believe that time will heals the emptiness and fear in me.
I really miss you guys alot the time we spent really enjoy every part of it bits to pieces.
Looking forward to clique's outing on Monday:DD

Confessions Of A Broken Heart,

2009-07-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

At the life of 14years old,life can be pretty hectic as what i am facing right now.I really wished that i am someone else not myself,probably i would be much happier dont you agree.Morning,that person waited for me again when to school together once again.Then,had Youth day celebration which i didnt really enjoyed it went talking to Mdm Jamaliah then yeah for now i say focus on my studies that's i am taking this one month break so shadn't waste it.Then,during recess something happened then here i go again,my face went seriously black i talked less than 10 sentences.How can we work things out,now im seriously lost my sense of direction in life,what should i do?How am i supposed to move on whereby i didnt know where's the direction i am suppose to move towards.Life is pretty much miserable,isnt it?I really have to bear with life for one more month and things would be alright?But,this one week is already enough to kill me.Well,im much better with many people's motivational words:D
Thanks Clique(L)

I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders,

2009-07-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

I dont blame life for being unfair or unreasonable,cause it hasnt been fair to me all these while isnt it.It was too harsh and too much for me what can i do?Will crying do the trick i dont thinkk so?Why give a damn crying cause it dosent worth a single thing to you isnt it?

Your love seems so insignificant,

2009-07-01T00:40:00.000-07:00

I have been Yawning all day long since yesterday even though i sleep quite early yesterday,im still freaking sleepy and tiredD: And yeah,there's this nice person who waited for me at my station this morning freaking good lurhs,at least im not bored still got someone accompany go school and the fact that im not alone today morning.He crapped with me in the LRT train on the way to school,super funny.Yeah,then went straight up to class then take temperature every single day twice daily how bored can it be.Then,Mdm Jamaliah asked me out of the class for SIT then yeah talked for quite sometime luckily this time i never cry or usually after each SIT session no matter who was the one SIT me.Hm,the lesson was quite okay i shall say im rather abnormal today,you can ask Xinyee or Caiyun rather werid as in my action and the way i talk haha!

Mrs Kwan show this video during history class,i swear this is very funny,must watch okay.Editted from the song 'Nobody' from wonder girls.Hehe.Yeah,im such a good girl i went straight home after school:DD
Mdm Jamaliah comment this on my facebook:
The start of any journey is always the hardest,
especially if it is YOURSELF that needs to do the walking.
Of course, you're a girl of character - bite the bullet and keep to the right track.
Hm,i am still wondering that if im like what she said that i am a girl of a character but indeed her words are motivating.Thanks alot,it's great to have you as my Civic Tutor.

Super love this picture with my dearest Jaslyn Tan Jie Ling(!)
Hah,dont mess with the both of us cause we poke your nose:DD

Im too afraid losing you,

2009-06-30T04:57:00.000-07:00

Shall post about yesterday school was freaking werid yesterday i swear.Teachers were standing in a row at the school gate in two lines parallel apart,then we were like some sort of tourist coming into singapore.hah,then i should have cough or sneeze then i could go back home to sleep.Freaking need more time to sleep i swear,then lesson boring as ever what could you expect.I catch up alot with Amanda on what's on going during the holiday.Yeah,and then spent my lunch with Clique plus Athira at KFC heh,i was talking hell loads of horny stuff then Fitzgerald spit out his ice from his mouth freaking funny haha!Yeah,as for today things isnt any better so shall not bother saying so much:D School has too much for me to digestD: Super hate blogger i cant upload any picturesD:

Just so much to say,yet so little time...

2009-06-27T22:01:00.000-07:00

I am just so loving my A-W-E-S-O-M-E Clique,mixture of different personalities and Character of people altogether.And i really have to stop my procrastinating,i still have alot of homework not done.Blame it on my procrastination,so this girl will have to rush through her day finnishing her homework.My break starts tomorrow for one month i really will missed Clique alot the time we spent will be lesser i guess but i think this will put our friendship through a test right?Through this one month i will control my sentimental side and bringing back my top 15 position.Difficult i know,but i'll overcome it i believe i can do it(: Basically,if anyone would try to break this clique up they will have to go through the other side of me.Everybody's got something they had to leave behind,One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time,There's no use looking back or wondering.So god tell me what am i suppose to do right now.

I can't keep my eyes off of you.

2009-06-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

Today and Yesterday was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

Yesterday went to watch Land Of The Lost,Yingxin and Jaslyn came to my house and changed went off to meetup with 11 sec2s' councilors and Hongwei.The movie is freaking funny yeah and clement was the one laughing the loudest,i didnt thank god.Hah,then after the movie we went to eat at Kopitiam and then played at the Skypark then homed.

Woke up early in the morning and meetup with Ng Yingxin for Girl Guides Carnival,it was seriously crowded was damn alot of people i was kind of annoyed.Then meetup with Cheryl then went to Our School's booth to check out the stuff.Then,went off to Bishan Junction8 went window shoppping aftermath went Farmway to take pictures!Then,went off have preparation on Fitzgerald and Clement's belated birthday got the Sushi platter instead of birthday cakes cool right prepared long ago at Punggol park with Jaslyn,Yingxin and Edwin.Then,i called Fitzgerald to come down then me,Jaslyn and Yingxin followed him went he came out from the lift.At first he didnt found out then his neighbours told him we were following him eventually he spot us,haha!Today's great while waiting for clement we chat,laugh and Crap.Then,the first time ever we took a clique(L) photo love it alot(:

Happy first month my dearest clique♥

Ng Yingxin,the girl that stands by me through one of those darket moment of my life.The motivation of me going to my CCA,and the commitments that i have made in all area.Thanks for being there for me without you i wont be as happy like right now.We shared through many moments be it happy or sad.We've seen each other cry and laugh,both of us are the sentimental kind that's what brought us together.My listening ears i wont hesitate to share my problems with you.Thanks Darling♥

Jaslyn Tan,my dearest blur girl always coming up to me whenever you see me moody,i really appreciate the concern that you've made.I am always ready to tell my troubles out to you,we've been through alot many storms happen in our path of our friendship but we didnt give up isnt it.The bimboness in us brought as together isnt it,haha!Thanks Dardar♥

Fitzgerald Lee,my closest guy best friend we've been friend for one year and a half.You're the one always bullying me,but i do find it funny and i dont mind.We had alot of disagrement between each other,that's why we click off right,haha!You're the always one that settle all my problems and the strongest one in the clique the one that motivates us.Thanks Fishy♥

Clement Chok,my laughing pills always make me laugh without fail.Always the one that bicker with me and you cant stop doing that isnt it.Alhtough you often bicker with me we do talk things out right my friend.I know i could count on you for help,thanks for helping me out all this while.Thanks Clement♥

Edwin Koo,another blur one but in a way that you always did little things that made me touched.You really made this Clique a wonderful one.Thankyou for those lollipops that you gave me at the time that i was moody that really made my feeling better.Hah,thank you Koo Meh Meh♥

You and Me,

2009-06-25T05:46:00.001-07:00

Hey,im back Genting:DD

Yeah,went to Genting with my cousins,Nephews and Nieces hah the bus ride up to Genting was filled with laugthers,yeah my Nephew is urber cute can,haha!Then,we went to the Acarde cant imagine i spent RM50 over with my brother playing those dumb machines heh then had lunch at the malls.Then,an early night.

Second day:

Woke up early in the morning and had breakfast with Cousins,Nephew and nieces.Then,went to the theme park played alot i cleared all those freaking scary rides,this spaceshot almost kill me lorh throw me up to 20storeys and up and down.

Third day:

Had an unplesant ride back my cousin and sister-in-law had a fight with the bus driver screw that driver man what kind of manners and service is this we aid money getting scolded for godness sake my sister-in-law went lodging a complain.

抹不掉伤心回忆,

2009-06-21T00:55:00.000-07:00

我选择在原地守候,都怪我自己太不甘示弱;
I have just a plenty time to think about many thingsD: Right now my blogsongs best describes my feelings,i feel so lost and empty right now.Now,it's the time that im going to be strong there's still tomorrow to work towards.I'll be a strong girl,that many people would be proud of heh.I want to eat something that cheer me up.Yeah,so i guess im going to the Coffee Shop behind Fitzgerald's House to eat oyster omelete.Tomorrow would be a better day wouldn't it,i hope it would be.Tomorrow,i'll be off to Genting for 3days so wont be blogging unless the hotel there have computer.Smiling seems so difficult right now,right now there's nothing more for me to say than accepting the reality and fact and to overcome it.

I can't keep my eyes off of you,

2009-06-20T18:00:00.000-07:00

Second post of the day,im seriously lucky to have you guys as my clique thanks for the much concerns and Cheering me up.Especially NgYingxin,Jaslyn Tan and Fitzgerald Lee,the people that always stand by me no matter what happen.I kept on Reminding myself to make full use of the one month break,i mustn't waste my time away during the one month.No point reminiscing the past,we'll just get even more hurtD: For the last time, my heart is torn in two and thinking of days spent without you guys in the one month.I'll miss you guysD: Im off,going to catch my Boys Over Flowers:DD
Holding on till the end...

You make it hard to breathe.

2009-06-20T17:49:00.000-07:00

Things are too much and hard to digest at ths point of the point,those two days of day camp there's alot of trainings and talks going on.Those talks really wakes me senses up,i should judge the things im facing right now as if it doesnt change.In life we're like going through four seasons now im facing winter it's cold and freezing out there but i cant give up cause i wanted to witness the next season summer which is so warm and beautiful.My parents had made a desicion for me,i dont want to accept that desicion i wont let my passion dying because of the desicions.No one could understands what i am feeling right now,im tired of things right now and request for a break from council board.Then,i had SIT with Miss Lim,poured every of my problems out,thanks for the encouragement,telling me that there isnt any problem that cant be solved.I'll make full use of the break to get myself back on track to a much stronger person,that's what i promise to myself and Miss Lim:D Please i beg you daddy and mummy just leave me alone for this one month,im getting myself back stop pulling me backD:

Things wont be back like the past,but i'll make it much more fulfilling than before;

i kept screaming for your name but you cant hear me...

A phrasing that's a single tear,

2009-06-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

Can anyone out there mend a broken heart?Cause today i had double huge blows,today went back for precamp and then i dont know why i was seriously moodless in the morning and i stoned in council room and suddenly emotion outbreak and i cried.Athira dragged me out for SIT and i just poured out my feelings and cried very hard.Why must this kind of things happen to me what have i done deserving such circumstances?Yeah,thanks to athira im fine just back then.Then,had Proposal timeline briefing,i shall say i dont understand a shitx until hongwei brief us and then went out for Amazing race tryout kind of tired after that.After that yingxin and me are just too tired out to join in the games.And then,Mrs Ang had asked us to shorten the camp into a day camp,there will not be any overnights.Im utterly very upset,the hardwork that we've put into the propsal those sleepless nights just gone into the drain how great?And,then we called every sec1 PSCs' up to inform them about the shorten of the camp.And,then went to KFC for dinner and then bused home with Fitzgerald and Edwin.Not gonna sleep going to stone till the sunrise.And yeah,i would appreciate if those people who wanted to know just stop prompting me on what happen seriously dont have the mood to tell you guys,cause im so going to cry while saying the entire situation.

To NgYingxin,Jaslyn Tan,Edwin koo,Clement Chok&Fitzgerald Lee;

My dearest clique,im sorry to be such disappointment,im the most useless one in the clique.Im sorry that im not a very strong girl,and have given you guys alot of problems.Didnt really rendered alot of help in the process.A heartfelt sorry to you guys,it's no one fault for such things to happen blame it on H1N1 virus for getting into our way.But,i promise no one will get into our way,not gonna be the old faye anymore im gonna be a strong girl and wont cry.Im tired of acting anymore being like a bimbo showing the whole world that she is strong and a happy go lucky girl.Lastly,im really sorry for being a burden for you guysD:

Im tired of trying so hard,

2009-06-16T06:31:00.000-07:00

I dont know what's with life now adays,and i dont what to know what's going on.When back to school for Mathematics consultaion with Amanda.Then,Mr lim was late then waited till 8.20am where as we are suppose to meet at 8am.Heh,did a few questions and went off to Red-Cross retreat bused down to Pasir Ris Park with Yingxin,the retreat was seriously not successful it's almost all free timeD: Then,after the retreat bused to Hougang Avenue8,for Oyster omelete and Fried kway teow it was seriously worth waiting,it's seriously damn nice but kind of oily.Im sucha failure everynow and then i tears cant seems to stop when im alone.Please life give me a break,im not able to do the retreat and failed to help alot in the PSC camp proposal.I cant blame life for being unfair shall just cried it off,i think i can feel better.Im sorry now i cant talk to anyone,i would burst into tears.Im just to tired to carry on,blame it on me then.

Pictures and memories came back to life,

2009-06-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

Im really tired and now im getting headaches after today,had games tryout for the PSC camp.I shouldn't have touched the computer in the morning that's why i am late meeting Yingxin then waited for jaslyn at least im not the last one,heh.So,i skipped my breakfast yeah,had games tryout quite okay just that im very tired carrying those benches and tables from the canteen carrying in out of the canteen.Yeah,and then had a really late lunch at around 4pm at the steps at Econ Minimart ate Instant noodles,Aww how awfully pathetic haha,no lurh actually the feeling is not bad the whole big group of camp comm eating over there.Then,me,Jaslyn and Yingxin went to athira's grandmother's house the cousin very pretty and cute heh.Then,did alot of workout today ran back with Yingxin,Jaslyn,Yingxin and Athira back to compass point.Walked around then bused back with Yingxin and Edwin,gosh guess what the bus broke downD: How awfully unlucky then walked back with Yingxin and Edwin.Tomorrow having Red-cross Retreat and Mathematics with Amanda and Mr Lim.

You are the love,

2009-06-14T03:55:00.000-07:00

Another day out with family at vivo city.Went around going to Giant supermarket but groceries and then went to my must go shop Adidas.Since it's Great Singapore Sales,i'll take this chance to buy stuff,heh im sucha good girl i only buy a yellow pumps which sad to say it costs $79.Quite pricy but seriously like it alot.Then,recieved a text messange from darling said that she saw someone wearing red-colour liverpool jersey in vivo city.Then,she dont want to tell me where she is made me go around whole vivo city looking for her.Then,later she finally came to find me.Then,the two little no childhood girls went to Toys R Us,the stuff over there are real cute but kind of expensive.There's alot of familiar faces of toys and then we begin our crap,heh then she went back to her mummy,then i join my family back.Tomorrow supposely to have a clique outing but cancelled due to all of us having meeting tomorrow from9am-5pm.AwwwD: Still finding time to have a clique outing,it has been a busy school holiday.Mummy,i want a new phone:D!

I remember the simple things,i remembered till i cry

2009-06-13T19:50:00.000-07:00

Today,seriously bored to the max,didnt went out i was suppose to go out for the red-cross retreat planning but then mum didnt let me out,im so sorry my dearest Ng YingxinD: Did my homework i guess i have cleared almost half of my holiday assignments.Then,today was so called family day went out the whole day with them,i treat daddy Subway for advance Fathers' day,then got Pie Kia it has such a long queue but i love the mushroom chicken Pie and got Polar Puff Cake.Then,had dinner at kopitiam with daddy and mummy.Yeah,today thank you for entertaining me heh(: I wanna go out but i dont have moneyD: Mummy give me money okay?Hah,i just cant stand boredom now adays.

Random Quiz

2009-06-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

1)Amanda Chew
2)Cheryl Yeo
3)Clement Chok
4)Edwin Koo
5)Fitzgerald Lee
6)Jaslyn Tan
7)Karen Low
8)Ng Yingxin
9)Enrica Cheng
10)Farah

1.How did you meet 4?(Edwin Koo)
-Student Council Board

2.Do you have a crush on anyone up there?
- Sad to say there isnt oneD:

3.What would you feel if you hadn't meet 1?(Amanda Chew)
-There isnt anyone to talk to me in class entertaining meD:

4.How did you meet 8?(Ng Yingxin)
- Student Council Board and Red-Cross.

5.Is 2 one of your best friend?(Cheryl Yeo)
-Yeah,we're more than that:D

6.Whose 9 best friends? (Enrica Cheng)
-Me and Amanda:D

7.Have you ever been in the same bed with any of the above?
- Yeah.

8.Do you love 1?(Amanda Chew)
~ Yeah!:D love her bits to pieces!

9.What can you say about 5?(Fitzgerald Lee)
-As what he always say he's multi-talented,somehow i do agree.

10.Describe 10.(Farah)
-Horny Babe!

11.Is 7 steading with anyone?(Karen Low)
-Nope.

12.When is the last time you fight with 3?(Clement Chok)
-Actually we don't fight we bicker!:D

My tears started to bleed,

2009-06-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

These few days have been trying to change my life.Yesterday,i've made an attempt to go jogging,in such hot weather im going on diet i am getting fatter each day,so i'll have to go on an diet.Today,went to meetup earlier with Ng Yingxin♥ then began our crap.Yeah,super funny and meetup with Red-cross mates for Red-cross Retreat proposal,yeah and then god guess who i saw my"Son",goodness i went screaming can you believe it thank godness he didnt see me,or else i dont know what will happen to meD: After that went for planning comittee meeting with EXCOs' at compass point yeah after that Miss Lim came went home.Then,took bus80 back with Ng Yingxin♥,we have hell loads of joke and crap together,it has been a long time since i have laugh that much.

The reason is you,

2009-06-10T17:45:00.000-07:00

I was totally lost didnt want to trouble anyone,so i went to find Jaslyn♥,thanks for being there for me for that moment of time.I am just so tired of all those up coming problem,hah that girl cheer me up alot.Then,went back home with jaslyn used the computer,my modem broke down then,i open up my picture files reminiscing the past.Back then,thing was much simpler much happier there are not much problem back then.Haha,that girl of mine ask me asked me to post this picture.

Yeah,later went to movie with brother.Watched night at the museum2,wasted my time lining up should have booked the tickets online rather than lining up for itD;The whole show was real funny,a must watched movie:D ilove the cupids and the woobly head albert ensteins dam cute.Went back home,then someone came calling meowing at meD: Super guailan lorh,ask that person go join Pussy-Cat Dolls since the person like meowing so much.Haha,but it's my fault i guai lan him first.

A broken heart is a heart that has felt love,

2009-06-09T18:11:00.000-07:00

Things has gone beyond my control,somehow expected.I had tried my best and took my first step towards the problem,it seems like if i am the only wanting to solve the problem no point isnt it it seems like you're not putting the effort,to solve the problem.No point,forcing you or asking you to change if you dont want to.Cause forcing each other none of us would be happy.So,i think i'll stop this topic cause whenever i think about it memories flashed back to the time we used to have those moments we treasured.I'll be going off to Chalet later,but i dont think i'll enjoy it at all D: Have been spending almost every single second talking to Ng Yingxin♥,heh tomrrow meeting up with her yeah so i guess we'll have alot to say(:

我痛不是因为你伤了我而是你让我真正明白爱你在伤口,finally understands what this feels,it's like million needles prickling through my heart,i guess you will never feel what i feel right nowD;

Quiz,

2009-06-09T08:23:00.000-07:00

Quiz,
1.Amanda Chew
2.Cheryl Yeo
3.Clement Chok
4.Edwin Koo
5.Fitzgerald Lee
6.Jaslyn Tan
7.Karen Low
8.Ng Yingxin
9.Wong Ching Ting
10.Lynette Ng
11.Jia Xin
12.Farah
13.Enrica Cheng
14.Xin yee

1. How did you get to meet 7 (Karen Low)?
- Student Council Board.

2. What would you do if you & 13 never meet (Enrica Cheng)?
- Life in class wouldn't be as much funD:

3. What would you do if 1 & 12 date(Amanda Chew&Farah)?
- Impossible they aint lesbian.

4. Have you ever seen 14 cry (Xinyee)?
- Nope,she's a happy go lucky person:D

5. Would 4 & 11 be a good couple (Edwin Koo&Jiaxin)?
- I dont think so._.

6. Do you think 11 is attactive (Jiaxin)?
- Yes,she's my lovely junior.

7. What's 2's favourite colour (Cheryl Yeo)?
- Blue?

8. When was the last time you talk to 9 (Wong Ching Ting)?
- Sometime ago,perhaps in the last month.

9. What language does 8 speak (Ng Yingxin)?
- English,chinese and Craps:D

10. Who is 13 going out with (Enrica Cheng)?
- eh,idk._.

11. What grade is 12 in (Farah)?
- Secondary 3

12. Would you ever date with 10 (Lynette)?
- Yes,if wouldn't a girl.

13.Where does 5 live (Fitzgerald Lee)?
- Hougang

14. What's the best thing about 3 (Clement Chok)?
- The best laughing medicine that anyone could have:DD

15. What would you want to tell 10 now (Lynette Ng)?
- Pretty,i miss you so much.

16. What's the best thing about 8 (Ng Yingxin)?
- A very good listener&the only person in the world who can understands me.

17. Have you ever kissed 5 (FitzgeraldLee)?
- No !World War3 could have started:O

18. What was the best memories you have with 7 (KarenLow)?
- Being there for me whenever i need her.

19. When's the last time you're going to see 6 (Jaslyn Tan)?
- Yesterday.

20. How is 14 & 12 different (Xinyee&Farah)?
-Great friend and great senior:D

21. Is 6 pretty (Jaslyn Tan)?
- Obvious question.

22. What was the first impression of 11 (JiaXin)?
- Chipmunk?

23. How did you meet 5 (Fitzgerald Lee)?
-During D&T class?

24. Is 1 your best friend (Amandachew)?
- We're more than that,we are lesbos:D

25. Do you hate 12 (Farah)?
- Not at all.

26. Have you seen 4 on the last month (Edwin koo)?
- Yeah,saw him yesterday.

27. When was the last time you said to 3 (Clement Chok)?
- Forgot._.

28. Have you been to 5's house (Fitzgerald Lee)?
- I was at his house downstairs,didnt went up?

29. When's the next time your gonna see 10 (Lynette)?
- Very soon :D

30. Are you close to 13 (Enrica Cheng)?
- Yes(:

31. Have you been to a movie with 4 before (Edwin Koo)?
- YEAH! :D

32. Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8 (Ng Yingxin)?
- Yes,Shhhh...

33. Would you give 2 a hug (Cheryl Yeo)?
- YES! :D

34. When have you lied to 3 (Clement Chok)?
-i dont think so.

35. Is 1 good with socializing (Amanda Chew)?
- Yes,that's why she have me:D

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1.Three days from now, will you be a in relationship?
-I wont go for any relationship i swear.

2. What color are your eyes?
-Black:D

3. What does your second text message say?
-Amandachew saw someone that i never want to talk to in my entire life.

4. How do you think your ex feels about you?
-idk,do i look as if i care?

5. Do you like what you see in the mirror?
-No,infact i hate myself.

6. What are you listening to right now?
-Nothing.

7. What were you doing 46 seconds ago?
-Trying to complete this neverending quiz.

8. What are your plans for this weekend?
-Watch Movie?

9. What are you doing tomorrow?
-Movie outing with family?

10. What is your display name?
-FAYE

14. What are you wearing right now?
-White T-shirt and black FBT

16. How is your hair?
-No comment.

17. As of today, do you like anyone?
-Ng Yingxin!

18. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours?
-Nope.

19. Have you ever stayed awake for 48 hours?
-Perhaps

21. Do you like your first name?
-Nope.

22. Do you like to cuddle?
Yeah XD

23. What is your initial?
-singapore?

24. Ever been skinny dipping?
-How i wish!

27. What is one thing you have learned this year?
-Cherishing the person you love and care about you.

28. Are you from a small town?
-Yes.

30. Why do people continue to smoke when they know the effects of it?
-Cause they only remember that moment of pleasure when they smoke?

31. What color are the curtains in your room?
-Orange?

32. If you had the chance, would you move to another country?
-Yeah, to japan(:

33. What time did you get up this morning?
-7plus

34. Eyeliner or mascara?
-Eyeliner,mascara kinda fake:x

36. What color pants are you wearing?
-black

37. Are you wearing shoes?
-nothing!

38. What is the temperature?
-How would i know?

39. Have you ever been to counseling?
-nope.

40. Last time you had a fling?
-Forgot-.-

41. What kind of cell phone do you have?
-Nokia 5220 Xpress Music.

42. Last time someone made you laughed hard?
-Hm,it has been a long time since i laugh that hardD:

Tonight I've fallen and I cant get up,

2009-06-08T04:56:00.000-07:00

Thanks ng yingxin♥ for coming to my house and going to school with me for planning committe meeting.Hm,somehow i keep on thinking of what have happened recently i cried in the toilet.It seems like whenever people are laughing because how stupid the joke can be im profusely crying deep down in my heart cause somehow i find it so difficult to laugh or even smile.After that,went to compass point to meetup with karen and camp committee mentoring us on activity proposal.And then,i left earlier mum came scolding me so,i went on crying by the staircase.And,then mum came comforting me.Problems coming one after another,friendship and family problem one after another.I feel that i failed to be a good friend,daugther and sisterD: Time will heal the wound i guess,thanks karen♥ for everything today.

回到最初的时候,

2009-06-06T18:02:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since i went on an movie outing,heh.Meetup with loveliens at compass point then trained down to Vivo city.The entire journey is filled with none other than my voice and laugthers,Golden Village was filled with people,then wanted to watch Night At The Museum 2.Then,the slot was out so walked around the whole Vivo City,we were urber hungry and then went to HarbourFront Centre for Pasta Mania.Looking at how loveliens eat,is super funny and cute cant be compared with them.Yeah,and then didnt know that mum and dad were downstairs so went down and meet them for dinner and then later loveliens say that the Night At The Museum2 movie slot was out,and then decided to watch Terminator Salvation.Before any movie starts there will be a Trailer one of it is Drag Me To Hell,yeah and then i scream cause of the sound effect and the image then loads of people were staring at me cause i guess im the only one that scream.The whole movie i seriously dont understand what the movie is saying and then i wanted to sleep and then when i see the robots i know that it would be full of machineguns sounds,im so annoyed(!) And then,bused home with loveliens heh thanks for everything today.
Cant wait to see my cute lil Gorilla and Chimpanzee<3

Cant stop tears from trickling down,

2009-06-05T04:31:00.000-07:00

Im seriously devasted with the change of many people especially when they are the closest ones to me.I didnt wanted to believe either,but i still have to face the reality.Problems one after another,i really had enough.Mummy your perfect image of a good mother will always be kept in my heart,but i still could not forget the words you said yesterday it is simply hurting.I wanted to move on,and just forget the hurt you've made but it's impossible.Next,i'll hope that somehow you'll wake your sense up okay,many people is simply upset over you.I guess you did not get it,i guess we should just think it through but i'll hope that you'll made the right choice.Im hoping the old you would be back,hope that you wont disappoint me.Hope that the tears worth something,and not let it be shed for nothing.

Ng Yingxin♥ ,thanks for being there for me.

The outcome i wont want to know,

2009-06-04T06:31:00.000-07:00

random shot of picture i took(:

I swear that day is one of the tirest day of my entire 14years of life okay.Wake up at 7.30am then wore home clothes thought that i need to wear PE attire heh lucky wear homeclothes.Then,rushed to take LRT to school then took the other side cause i think it's faster not the normal route i took,then saw Yingxin and Co. heh they go school together many people is already there,then Miss Lim and Mr Firman came the last.We took MRT to outram park then change to Buona Vista,then took bus 200.The whole entire journey is filled with laugther and jokes.Then,we climbed the kent ridge park which is like almost killing me the route up is seriously not easy okay,then have to walk up and down hill very tiring but quite fun.I've got many SIT with Miss Lim on the trip.After walking till 2pm we went to Vivo City to have lunch at banquet.After that we still have one more trip to the Cityhall,it was so called the amazing race doing the crossword puzzels,teamed up with Miss Lim,Me,Yingxin,Edwin,Fitzgerald and Siew yi,then the other was Mr Firman,clement,aidil,hongwei and Javon.Walk around the whole civic district area.Then,ended the whole thing at about 6pm++.Then,went to have dinner with Clique at hougang behind Fitzgerald's house then he treat me fried kway teow thanks heh(:

Im seriously disappointed with you mum,you did not trust me at all as a daugther,i have been doubting that if we are even mother and daugther relationship.I thought that i told you where i am going is basic respecting you as mother.I guess mum,i no longer trust you anymore,you called my teacher to check on me.You freaking dont trust me okay,i thought that perhaps im 14years old you would have trust on me.Infact,im crying over you cause mummy i told you would understand me infact not.I did not scream at all,rather disappoined in you dont bother to say a thing,im just crying over someone that ilove alot.Im okay already after aunt talking to me,but mum somehow i still lost trust in you already you are not longer that mum i knowD;

Love knows not distance;it hath no continent

2009-06-03T19:02:00.000-07:00

I guess there is not much things going on today,i guess today im going to be a good girl staying at home and doing my holiday assignments.There is alot of them waiting for me,so i would be touching on them today.But there is alot things i want to do during the june holidays,i want outings,more clothes and most of all more money:D School holidays hasnt been really great,i need someone to make laugh right now.Serious fact,is that im going to change myself not to be such a self-fish person and im not gonna add more problems to others.Thanks for being the source of laughters for many of us,im so sorry for adding problems to you.But,i do hope to see you laugh and smile cause you are lived to do that,smile from deep down in your heart.

Edited*

That cute little sweetheart,beside my picture heh today she's a little monster heh.Im such a kind aunt to share my Yakult with her then she drink a sip then she gave the yakult to me and then had all to herself.I wanted to drink she snatched it away from me and then yeah nearly scratch me yeah,gave her and got another from the Refrigirator and then yeah she came to me and took the Yakult from me,she's not any girl you can mess with with heh.But,we're still close Aunt and Niece:D

The heart has reasons that reasons cannot know

2009-06-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

Today half of the camp commitee came to my house for meeting on camp proposals.Yeah,it was quite fun with them over at my house just that my 1.5litre of coke was finished up and my potato chips was gone alsoD: Heh,later most of the people left only fish lee,Ng xingxing and Meh-meh-koo(FYI.Refer to Yingxin's blog to know who they are:D) at my house.Zomfg,we had cat fight somehow damn fun it has been a long time since we have such fun,even though it's kinda childish.Then,later went over to Meh-meh-koo's house for lunch,thne we resume our cat fight again but these time more unglam and violent heh.Thursday still got trip heh,damn looking forward:D

You're the cost of emptiness in me

2009-06-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

Feat.my dearest yingxin and jaslyn

Meetup with yingxin upon going to the hougang sec campfire,we were real hyper at compass point while we were roaming around the whole mall.And then,here it came all over again,the feeling came by out of a sudden,i could not hold it much longer seriously,i blame myself very being such useless grumbling about such little things and adding on problems to others.I just somehow a self-fish spoilt brat in many peoples' eyes.Independence seems to be so far away from me,i seem to rely on others to much till i find it so difficult to stand on my own.We left the campfire earlier we walked and reflect quite sometime,finally i've thought it through somehow.But overall,the campfire was great,especially one of the guy me and yingxin found,we found him damn funny and he resembles someone we know heh Shhhh... not gonna tell you guys:D

You're the reason I believe in love

2009-05-29T03:37:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to grab hold of myself,i tried my best not to cry,if i do i will soon breakdown and i would be back to what i am 1month again where by i find it not worth it.Camp committe this is for you guys,i know you guys have spent many nights doing the proposal and some even stayed up till 5am in the morning,all of us are trying very hard to make the camp successful.But,at some point of time situations are really hard i know but we still got to hang in there,no time for anyone one to breakdown okay?Camp committe jiayous!

Can't stop my heart from calling you

2009-05-27T04:34:00.000-07:00

From yesterday and today have been doing proposals for the game in the PSC camp,i finally understands it seems like very boring but many hardwork is behind it.Yeah and then these whole week alot of us are staying back doing the proposal.Today,class was real boring almost the whole day we are watching movies and having free period,hah i was walking around and talking alot eh.Hah,then sybil came sit on me and amanda's leg,hah thank godness she didnt jump onto my leg.Yeah,after school had meeting and we are doing proposal.Me and yingxin was thinking about the games for the PSC camp yeah,alot of horny ideas came up from both of us,haha expected from us.And yeah,relly had enough of you stalker,following us everywhere we go,please have a life somehow okay.Actually,the stalker wasnt following me but my clique seriously that annoys me alot okay.I've got my new spectacles already have been waiting for dont know how long.heh,thanks daddy and mummy for that news spectacles.

How much I want to kiss your forehead that comforts me,

2009-05-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

Today,i've got all my results back heh.It is very disappointing,i've failed two subjects which is mathematics and science how great?Physics cause my whole paper to fail,screw physics yeah?But,im really proud of my history and geography results.I've got 37/50 for my history and 51/80.Not bad eh,first time my geography at such marks and history i got 37marks someone got higher than me by 1mark and then my top position in history.I've got to buck up for the next semester(:
有好几次我都想挽留苦求也没有用就当作是寂寞

Im sorry for crying over you,

2009-05-24T03:21:00.000-07:00

Hah,Ng YingXin forced me to post heh,so for her sake i post today(:I went out the whole morning and afternoon with daddy&mummy to have breakfast and then but groceries with them heh.Then,got my starbucks mocha frappochino,and then rotting right now at home.Yingxin was entertaining me just know all along thanks heh.Tomorrow will be knowing all the results hah i really want to pass the rest of the papers.God bless me okay,i've worked really hard for this MYE im sure god can see it so bless hard that i will pass the rest of the papers.Faye really want to do well and let daddy and mummy to be proud of her:D Faye will pass everysingle one of the subjects hopefully(: Yeah,i have plan many outing during the june holiday,yeah i have pack the whole june holidays:D

I am never alone with you in my heart,

2009-05-23T04:39:00.000-07:00

I just feel like im such a let down to my parents somehow,im super sorry for mathematics results.Daddy and mummy i'll work extra hard for the next examination i promise.Heh,today went out with daddy and mummy,then i reminded daddy to bring me to his friend's salon cut hair,and then how wonderful im back to my mushroom head,infront was like bangs but longer which is like super ugly and suckish but forget it.I've already cut but do i enjoy the person's washing my hair,hah and say my hair is very straight for people who never reborn hair.Yeah,for that that person is forgiven.hah,see im so forgiving heh.Then,went to iluma the new shopping centre in bugis quite big but most the shop aren't open yet.Then,daddy&mummy order a news spectacles for me thanks heh,super love them!Had claypot rice with them for dinner.

My dear girl,
dont be upset already,do cheerup althought it's hard.
You are not asking for too much
neither have you been way too greedy
and you are never have been too self-centred
All of us are trying ways to give in,i know.But as long as we did our best
that's good enough already.So cheerup okay?loveya(:

有好几次我都想挽留,

2009-05-22T05:28:00.000-07:00

I kept telling myself that i've did my best but the results shown it all.I really got real shock terriblely shock i failed my mathematics paper1 very badly.But then,passed my langarts papers and chinese language papers.I really felt like crying on the particular moment but who else to blame,it's me eh.Facilitating NT camp,was really tiring got so tired out somehow.Then,had bowling enrichment with yingxin kind of fun,even though i didnt get strike but fun anyway.Im just moody because of my results and emotionally.

我开始失去了勇气

我假装清醒看清你的心终于我选择了离去...

You made me miss you too much...

2009-05-21T05:59:00.001-07:00

Mid-year exam are finally over!*Claps*It's like finally heh,suffering alot yeah.Hah,the thing that im scared is not doing the examination is getting the results.Heard that papers would be given out tomorrow,for us to check the paper.God bless me,okay pass every single subject.Mathematics paper2 was kind of okay i guess,it is easier than mathematics paper2.Heh,then clique called me that i have to report at 12pm and then i thought that i have CCA then forgot every single thing.Took taxi to school,i was stressed out and then the uncle was like relax.And then ,he was real good he only charge me$2,and the taxi fare supposingly is $4.40.Then,me and yingxin didnt go for the bukit merah with the others,went to beach cleaning before that me and yingxin when cam-whore around the school.Yeah,beach cleaning was real tiring and hot,the funny thing is that there isnt much rubbish for us to pick.Heh and then went back to school,waited for the campers to come back.Had debrief and etc,had dinner with cliques at puggol plaza at suki sushi.I was damn broke over there,hah i owe fitzgerald chawamushi cause he and yingxin waited for me and causing them to be late,heh sorry.Went home at about 8.20pm,today i super (L) clique!

i want outing leys(:

And i know i can't take it back,

2009-05-20T00:43:00.000-07:00

I've worked really hard for today's science paper,pratically the paper was kind of difficult.Somehow these mid-year papers i screwed up most of them,i promise end of year paper i would work extra hard to the limits.I really pray hard that i would at least at a top16 for mid-year,i really wanted to be the daugther that my parents to be proud of,so i've tried my best so i'll be waiting for the results so let me be the top16 in the level.For the past few days have been out with clique for breakfast/lunch.Somehow these few meals,got kind of annoyed the meal is supposingly to be happy it got wrecked by some people,hope that somehow things would get better?Tomorrow would be the last paper heh,all the way already endure with mathematics paper tomorrow.I won't be out celebrating but would be with my darling yingxin the whole day cause we'll be having CIP doing beach cleaning and facilitaing camp tomorrow real tiring day.But with darling around i guess i wont feel so heh.

No road is far,if it leads to you

2009-05-18T00:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up from some strange dream,woke up crying i know it's dumb but then it has been a long time since i have this kind of werid dream heh.Then,meetup with cheryl walked to school with her,im like some kind of typical singaporean nerd really on the way to school i read geography notes.Geography paper turns out to be uh kind of average neither is it difficult or is it easy.I nearly did not manage to finish the paper.After the paper went to eat subway with amanda,yay love it.Then,send amanda to the bus interchange,my bus took 20minutes plus to arrive i was so fed up yeah and then it was raining.Since it's raining went to my grandmother's house my baby niece was over there so damn cute,she was eating a pocky.Tomorrow,is history paper i guess it won't be a difficult one(:

We once walked with pain and sorrow,

2009-05-15T21:09:00.000-07:00

Seriously had a strong feeling that i have already flunk my mathematics paper1,seriously i cant find any confidence with me doing that paper,i kept doubting on my answers.Mathematics seriously is a total disater for me,mathematics really so going to kill me.I had a phobia for mathematics,wheneever i see i'll usually give up but this time really i have made an attempt,let me pass please.Hah,enough of my grumbling,i wanted to concentrate on mathematics paper2 it seems impossible,wanted to study with clique but then i know i would not concentrated and talk all the way.Okay,today i shall give myself a break,a day without mathematics(:

My Heart Was Taken By You,

2009-05-15T02:21:00.000-07:00

Mathematics paper1 today was super difficult for,i spent about 20minutes in the morning learning the formula doing last minute revision,in the end i still screwed up that stupid mathematics paper.The setter of the paper kept coming in to make amendments seriously doubt that he could set paper.In the end didnt manage to finish the paper and some question i dont even know what the hell is that question asking for.Nevermind just gonna mug hard for the next mathematics paper.Had breakfast with Amanda after the paper at punggol plaza(: Gonna study tomorrow with karen,hah yup studying for geography.

you're actually playing in my mind,

2009-05-14T02:24:00.000-07:00

Im super drench today even though i have an umbrella,didnt find the use of the umbrella isnt it use to shelter from rain.Hah,super cold today today's chinese paper i was real lucky that im able to do almost all of them,i took 1hour to finish up the comprehension,hah not that i didnt know how to do just want to make sure i wrote everysingle one of them without mistakes.Yay,i promise to score an A for my chinese.Then,after the paper went compasspoint with clique had breakfast/lunch over there.It is great hanging out with them,they are real funny people.Tomorrow is mathematics paper1 guess,im gonna screw it mathematics seriously isnt my thing.But,at least i give an attempt to try mugging on it:D

Perhaps we're trying too hard,

2009-05-13T01:06:00.000-07:00

Im now in a state of breaking down,i didnt know what to do im lost really.I really dont want to lose any of you but really you guys dont give up on yourselves,cause it isnt worth it.It just like

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared; he sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and it could go no farther. Then the man decided to help the butterfly, so he took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly. What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were nature's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon. Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If nature allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. And we could never fly... Now is really the time for us to adapt the changes in life,hang in there i know you will,just like the first time i saw you never did you gave up,keep that spirit going.I'll be waiting for the old you to be back.And,i miss you my friendD: Gonna go mug on my chinese paper2,remember hold on there if you need someone to talk to find me,i'll be there(:

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My empty arms reach out for you.

2009-05-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

School wasnt really great i was so damn bored perhaps too much free periods such as Home-economics,was given 2hours of self-study for god-sake how do you want me to study for 2hours then,was so tired of talking to fitzgerald and amanda fell asleep im super tired D: After school amanda went to Rivervale Plaza with me and buy stuff to make pancakes,it was urber delicious hah,sorry you guess cant try.Mum was super impress with her culinary skills somehow but i did help making too hehe:D Gonna mug for tomorrow's langarts paper!

Happy birthday Fitzgerald Lee!
Hah,finally 14years old already!Over all the conflicts and quarrel makes our friendship stronger i guess.Hah,sometimes you might be a little irritating somehow.Although you often tease but really do enjoy your joke somehow,known each other for over 1year plus already,sharing joy and tears with you and the cliques.Hope you'll like the present and enjoy your birthday yeah.Thanks for being such a great friend(:

Greatest love of all

2009-05-10T01:14:00.000-07:00

This post dedicated to my one and only dearest mommy,
Mommy i know that you would not read my blog,but i really wanted to let you know how much i appreciate you.I am very sorry that,im not a real great daugther that you wanted,i often scream at you and at times i do detest you.But,i'll always remember 2years ago i got my PSLE results and it was real bad,i cried and you didnt scold me but told me that i've worked my best and you said you are proud of me.Those heartfelt words will always be in my heart forever.Words could not describe how much you mean to me.Thanks for bringing me through this 14years,being with me through this moments be it good or bad.Hope that you like the cake,that dad sponsored me with me choosing.You're the greatest mom of all,love you alot(:

Hah,a special song dedicate to you:D

Zhi Shao Hai You Ni - Jiang Mei Qi

Another day without you with me,

2009-05-09T03:49:00.000-07:00

Today basically was out with family had breakfast at Owen Road then there's this Fried Carrot Cake that i always patronised whenever i go for breakfast over there,didnt expect to see such long queue,then my dad says the stall was being publicised by medicorp can you imagine 23people queue for that Fried Carrot Cake before was at most 10people.After that,went to Vivo city not much just window shopped around.Hah ya,and that Fitzgerald kept on bugging me on his birthday present hah,i will buy one dont worry(: Hah,the things that you took for granted once it was gone,you would regret that's what i have experienced before,cherish the people around you(: And seriously i wanted to study and revise for Mid-Year Examination then this Cheryl Yeo hah,come distract me with her drawings on msn.

Okay now introducing my daugther her name is Guailan(: Hah,name after one personality,but i dont find myself having such personality,haha anyway she's got my genes haha like the mushroom head i had before.Yeah then below is the improve version,i prefer the one below she is much cuter(:

Haha,that Cheryl Yeo never fails to make me laugh.She and her tag super cute heh,can go refer to her blog for more http://www.th-word.blogspot.com/ Yeah,always feel so great with you around.Haha,Mushroom loves Golden Retriever!

如果有一天,

2009-05-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

如果有一天我回到从前回到最原始的我你是否会觉得我不错?I suddenly have this thought,but if were back to be back i could hardly smile that much like what i did nowadays.Today was World Red-Cross Day,woke up super early can,then took LRT to school changed into Full-uniform.Then,didnt have march out cause of swine Flu no massive gathering.Hm,didnt take picture today hah cause partly i forget and didnt have time for it.Chinese Paper1 today was okay not really difficult,still can cope with the questions:D

haha,dearest drew this haha for entertainment purposes only,her drawing so random(:

I feel as if I could die tonight, knowing that you are not here.

2009-05-07T02:28:00.000-07:00

Today was the first paper,somehow dont feel the nervousness.I wanted to watch the Npcc then the invigilator asked the class to go in,hah why must she do that at least let me watch for 5minutes.Then,temperature taking begin sucking lollipop(Thermometer),im perfecty fine 36.5degres.Yeah,the paper was okay neither is it easy nor difficult.After the paper,went to puggol plaza with Amanda,had breakfast over at KFC.Went cam-whore with amanda,it has been quite sometime since we took picture together.Then,cliques went to find us at common green.Then,went to amanda's house yeah,we're real funny over at her house we were eating the whole box of her sweets and watching barney.Cam-whored alot,just going to post a few pictures,hah im lazy to post all of them it would time sometime.Tomorrow is chinese paper1 and World Red-Cross Day(:

Saying that I'm missing you might not really help anything,

2009-05-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

I have a great laugh this morning,all thanks to JarrenNg.Went to his class to settle his class down.Then,he randomly talked to me and all sorts of real funny stuff coming out from his mouth,he's a real funny guy.And really im so sick of taking temperature every single day,but no choice all thanks to the Swine Flu to cause such trouble.Mr Lim was real funny,he says row1 suck your lollipops under your tongue now,the lollipop refers to the thermometer.Stayed back after school,had lunch at school with Fitzgerald,Edwin,Hazwan and Ching Ting.Then,super random chat alot,while waiting for Darling and Co. Went home after that,and exams starts tomorrow hit off with English Paper1 im so going to get 5As no matter what,so im going to mug real hard for this Mid-Year Exam.And people good luck for their mid-years!

Love is to place our happiness

2009-05-05T00:54:00.000-07:00

It was raining again and again,hm so sick of it okay and i cant stop sneezing now worst im suffering from running nose.Yeah,school was great with them around especially home-economics today played True Or Dare,yeah i know it's super random,but then quite fun and yah Fitzgerald was there if you choose dare you're so gonna die okay so i chosed true all the way.Questions were super embarassing.Langarts class was a free period i guess,just doing journal entries.Then,went to compass point with Amanda then homed yeah didnt have money right now saving up for Fitzgerald's birthday coming in 7days,yup then if i didnt get him presents,he is sure to agitate me.Just kidding hah,yeah cooked instant Korean Ramen for lunch today.Finished watching 愛就宅一起 love the ending:D

One embrace,

2009-05-04T04:02:00.001-07:00

Meetup with dearest in th morning,took bus to school as it was raining.I was down with flu somehow,cant stop sneezing.Hah,assembly was cancelled due to the Swine flu somehow all mass gatherings are cancelled.Chinese class was changed to D2-05 i have to search the whole school to find them.Then,had lunch with Fitzgerald,Yingxin,Clement,Jaslyn,cheryl&Amanda.Yeah,super funny hah,then went home.Daddy&Mummy is bringing me to KL for june holiday with my cousin and Nephews hah,so excited:D But,mummy now is bringing me medicine for my flu,ohgod how i hate medicinesD:

Love is all the emotions of the world into one.

2009-05-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

I've got my pink ear piece!
Today,i had study sessions with Yingxin,Fitzgerald,Edwin&Clement.They are really one of a kind laughing pills!Haha,the theory from Yingxin.
30% of the time spent studying
10% spent talking
60% of the time they spent laughing at me and i also laugh with them cause it is real funny!
Then,went to sculpture park there eat real funny okay.Haha,then went to my grandmother's had an advance Mothers' day celebration dad and mummy bought alot of food KFC and dial for pizza!Then,i was real bored then Fitzgerald call and entertain me hah,cant stop laughing with those stupid jokes!Msning Ng Yingxin right now(:

The course of true love never did run smooth.

2009-04-30T02:13:00.000-07:00

At this moment really want to fly to india,to visit taj mahal.Mughal emperor Shah Jahan who erected this mausoleum in the memory of his beloved wife, Arjumand Bano Begum, popularly known as Mumtaz Mahal, who died in 1630. Her last wish to her husband was "to build a tomb in her memory such as the world had never seen before". Thus emperor Shah Jahan set about building this fairytale like marvel.Some time after her death, Shah Jahan undertook the task of erecting the world's most beautiful monument in the memory of his beloved. It took 22 years and the labor of 22,000 workers to construct the monument, which is also said to be the last wish of Mumtaz Mahal. Just tell me,in this world would any guy be so devoted to the one he love,kind of impossible.Had re-run of 2.4km during PE lesson hah i finally pass 17mins and 36seconds yeah finally,previously was 18mins 44seconds.hah,i've improve ley(: During LCE lesson i was being sabotaged and being asked what does going steady means,the i said caring for each other.Hah,then Mdm Jamaliah say girls tends to be more emotional yeah,hah so to me Friendships are worth more than relationships,it is 100% true okay.Gonna sleep until 9am tomorrow hah(:

Only love let’s us see normal things In an extraordinary way.

2009-04-29T04:48:00.000-07:00

Can you believed that my art assignment got a B4 heh,quite amazing okay i really sucked in my art okay.My design is Mushroom very cute lorh,then teacher says that my art is a high B4,might as well give me A2 lah i dont mind if it is a low one okay.Then,Fitzgerald got a A2 lah hmp not fair lah,haha!Yeah,my favourite time recess with the Sec2 councilors sitting together in one table great okay.Gosh,i passed and failed one of my chemistry paper.The one that i have failed is only by that 2marks for godsake,2marks only!Im going to mug real hard for my MYE gonna get 5As hah seems impossible but anything could happen(:Then,stayed back in sch for WRCD training,it was real fun commanding the squad okay.Felt so tired after the training had an headache super pain canD: Homed with Yingxin&Fitzgerald,yeah hah.
To my dear girl,
Dont get so stressed out okays,too study too hard till you cant take it.
It is real heartbreaking watching you cry,Cheer up my dear girl,just
do your best,i'll be there for you if you need me(:
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Love builds bridges where there are none.

2009-04-28T03:28:00.000-07:00

As what i've promised once things is back i wont be on hiatus.Yeah,things arte finally back to normal after 25days.I was real happy and glad after so many things have happened,conflicts and misunderstanding all gone(: It is real good to be back okay,super happy can.Yeah,then the whole of sec2 councillors sitting together for recess,it felt so great,it is just like a rainbow after a storm.Okay back to my favourite lesson Home-Economics!Yeah the remarks came back again haha,i miss that okay.My home-economics partner is back okay,haha.
Okay remember not to give up so easily okay,we friends are always there for you.You have solve the obstacle between us,problems are only challenging you,you will be able to overcome it okay.And dont change because people wants you to,but change because you think that can make you a better person.And,no matter if you've changed or not i will always remember the first time i know and you will always be.Thanks for reviving our friendship,i guess both of us have grown alot through this.

its gonna be a tough path ahead.

2009-04-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

Hey people i'll be on hiatus till things get better. It has been 1month i hope that things would be fine,after we think it through.But,always remember in my heart you are irreplacable.The text really shows that you care.But,i guess you need time to prove it,You're the light that light up my darkness.The one that truly understands me,perhaps after all this we will grow closer to each other.But,after this i hope i would not forget who you are.Okay,people miss me okay(:

It feels great to actually rewind back to our memories,

2009-04-25T03:25:00.000-07:00

Today marks the end of service-learning project,hah kinda controlled my emotion when cedric said those things about he said that i was very committed and stayed back almost everyday.I did this is not because of i wanted to claim any credits or what,it is just that i wanted our group to done our project on time and that the project we have is in a hight standard.Thanks Olivia for the cupcakes it is real pretty and delicious thanks alot.Had full board meeting today and yeah they annouced about the OIC for the PSC camp,im the assitant for the logistic and First aider.Yeah then guess what i was left all alone again,i've got so left out do you ever felt that.I have got so got so hurt,felt so exclude out you say you want me back the same,but how just look how you are treating me i held on my tears back again,not gonna cry infront of you people okay.Yeah after that,had SIT with Miss Lim she was a real good listener,she listened to all my problems and yeah Aneesa was there with me.Hah,we talked at outside the north star zone,then Mr Lim was in the northstar zone he kept looking and me then he ask Miss Lim:"is there any problem,that faye of mine is easily stress." So funny eh,then went to compass point with Aneesa to meetup with my parents.Got starbucks Mocha Frappochino and Caramal home(:

I'm leaving this to the hands of fate,

2009-04-24T05:29:00.000-07:00

Today morning i got up by the alarm clock to my surprise saw an sms.Really got so stoned by it dearest darling didnt imagine you really care so much i was so touched by that sms okay,on th way walking to dearest house i cried whenever i think of that sms.Then,met dearest hah same thing talk non-stop,till we reached school,haha i flunk my geography ST and i think probably gonna fail my Biology test on the Osmosis and Diffusion topic yeah.Then,changed went around th school with dardar for th cleanest classroom competition thing hah we are grading the classes cleanliness,running around sweating is real fun.Then,went for red-cross training on Outdoor silver hah not bad eh.Then.went to recap on evac gold and footdrill gold.Then,almost all th people in the school witness the NCC's changing of command post it was real cool man!Then,carried on with training and played captain's ball.Then,dismiss slack with Dardar&Yingxin hah we're bunch of crazy girls,went to council room and played the music super loud then went to play volley ball and etc.

Lastly,gonna end with my dearest Darling Ng Yingxin!

The motivation in me, towards Red-Cross,Council Board and School work.i've thought you have left me alone,i really feel that you might not be with me here anymore. The outcome,I wont know. All I know is its gonna be a tough path ahead.But in the morning i saw that messange i know how much you treasure our friendship and me.This few weeks is harsh and painful i guess both of us felt that.Thought by not talking to you in any form would do be better. But I was wrong,so very wrong. I've been thinking so much when I was away with my things.Thanks love!For everything today that bring me back to that bubbly faye.You'll be the one I talk to everyday and night like before. You wont be replaced,you never will be. Thanks love!

Unknown faces one after another,

2009-04-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

Going to school is such a dreadful part of my life it is not the lesson nor is it the teachers but the people around me.Mummy,i am sad,I dont feel like going to school. I dont feel like coming home. I just completely gave myself up.The people around seems to change so tremedously that you dont recognise them it is real scary,everytime i face them they seems to be having an a familiar face but a very strange character to me.Unknown faces one after anotherEvery face feels like a sketch of yours.I wonder if i should carry on like this,perhaps one day i will just cry infront of you people which i dont wish to.I guess slowly i will just vanish in the surrounding as you people dont even felt my presence not going to care.Believe me i wont make you clash between the both of us,cause i have gave up cause i am no longer who i am.I am not the one that have change is you people.Who can i tell my feelings out,who can i really revealed out my ownself crying to elmo and cookiemonster that wont tell anything out.The only ones that i could believe and rely on.And just some stupid and inconsiderate people prank call me several times,please you are not a 3year old child stop doing such childish act.

Every night remains the same dream,

2009-04-22T03:29:00.000-07:00

Yet another frugly boring school day,haha!But then,today is earth day then sont have CT time so yeah stayed at the courtyard and listen to hell load of speeches and etc.Then,it was Mr Lim walking towards me then he touched my head and he say yesterday your friend was playing a prank on you about the Maths results,hah yeah it was his warmth hand that brightens up my wednesday morning hah.Then,after school have got podcast so stayed in school for lunch yeah,saw people that i dont wanna see then go up to classroom to look for Mr Lim to do maths hah see im such a good girl hah,then went to Mac Lab look for Amanda&Enrica to do podcast then go down saw that there was the earth day so called carnival thing hah pretty cool,and someone gave me a super cute monkey(: hah,love it thanks!Daddy says that im childish taking that monkey,he ask me why that person gave me a monkey then he says perhaps you look like a monkey to that person hah,daddy is so funny(:

it's over i guess,

2009-04-21T03:39:00.000-07:00

Picture taken by:Xinyee(:

School wasnt really great it was raining cats and dogs well i change it it was raining Mushrooms&Golden retrievers hah,im the mushroom and Dearest is the golden retriever meetup with her then walked to the busstop to take bus,hah still we are wet yeah,lols.Today changed ezlink card omfg!My picture is super frugly it is like potato i cant stop laughing myself ewww!After school changed and meet xinyee at hougang mall cause im going to activate my ezlink card,rosamund and caiyun was also there walked rosamund to the busstop.Then,activate my ezlink card then caiyun went off,left me and xinyee went to her house then slack over there hah(:

I guess i really sucks now adays i felt so lost,im like so invisble to you never feel my existance,i cried today i guess i haven't really forgot things back then,i told myself not to look back in the end,i think about those times,it was the best days in 14years of my life,making you as friend i never had regretted really believe me,but ending this friendship was so painful.You're like a killer,the cold feeling you gave me is just like a knife that have stab into my heart.Okay i guess you wont understand how much you mean to me.forget it,history wont repeat itself,i just wanna smile like want i did in that picture hope the smile would last.

this song made me cry,real touching); Hah,xinyee intro one(:

It seems like we're fading apart,

2009-04-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

I was glad i eventually face up to the fact that we are no longer friends i dont take you as a friend anymore it is more like we're strangers that we've never met before.No longer part of my life,the friendship we had is fading apart i was glad you know,since it is so hard for us to be friends.Okay skipped that part,heh school was okay the screaming and shouting still going on yeah haha!Then,after school had WRCD training not bad but kind of tired,yeah juniors are juniors they are simply adorable yeah.Took the same LRT back with Junjie,chat along the way back he super cute in the way he talk.

The song Dearest dedicated to me(:

i hate you, you hate me,

let's go out and kill mushroom,

with a gun shot " bang bang "

mushroom on the floor,

no more mushroom dinosaur.

©Cheryl Yeo!

Hah she super random-.-

You still walked away leaving me in this mess,

2009-04-19T00:34:00.000-07:00

Crying has become of my my daily routine,it is just so hard to forget you my friend i guess you have forgotten what you have said 1month and 12days ago,when we had a huge fight you said this to patch up our friendship you said:You're great listener to me and many juniors look up to you.For that i cry for what you said i didnt expect you to say all these.And now things change i guess,i've lose you as a friend and you treated me as an enemy.I didnt wanted all these to happen i've tried my best to revive our friendship but for now im too tired to carrying on trying.I just want to be alone tonight,I just want to take a little breather.Cause lately all we do is fight and everytime it cuts me deeper.Cause something changed you've been acting so strange.And its taking its toll on me,its safe to say that im ready to let you leave out of my life.Without you i live it up a little more everyday i guess.Without you i'm seeing myself so differently.I didnt want believe it then,but it all worked out in the end.When i watched you walk away.Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you.But,that's the only way to make me strong,is to let things put to an end.Takecare alright(:

My heart is heavy but I cant cry,

2009-04-18T04:20:00.000-07:00

Angelina:D

Jillian Tan;Junior!

Cedric Low!

Gin Peng,Cedric Low!,Aneesa and Me:D

Aneesa;Duty Partner!

Today is th BIG day,that many of us had worked hard for,well the Sports Carnival was kinda Messy somehow.But im proud of my group's mannequin,although many people were shy to take the picture but then,they complimented on it:D And yah,station at the spiral staircase there and there was Starbucks Coffeee!,i have had 6cups and 2cups of Milo cant blame me yeah the weather is super hot!Okay then,went around the school cam-whore with many people(: Hah,someone says that im wearing contact lens but i am not hah,cant afford one.Just kidding,im not use to wearing contact lenses.Then,the clearing up of the carnival is killing me carry 6mannequins to the PE Store and carry the banches and Tables from th hall to the canteen,and dismentaling and clearing up the tentage was a real tired job.But overall it was a great job and there is a quote in the Phamplet which says Sweat plus sacrifice equals Success,hah totally agree.Then,after all those clearing up went home bath and went out with my family,quite bored then.Dad knew what happened recently didnt expect him saying this:Daugther,i know it is hard on you,but keep holding on girl,things will get better in time(Translated into english),i was super touched but dad things could not be rewind i know,so dont worry dad i will be a strong girl i would not shed anymore tears for such stupid matters.

It is incredible meeting you,

2009-04-17T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hah,today all the hard work had paid off yeah(: Set up the mannequin that some of us had real work hard for it is really worth it staying back for about 3weeks doing it,and tomorrow is the big day isnt it exciting.Heh,then had study with Miss Yeap and Cheryl waited for both of them Rivervale Plaza yeah then at first was suppose to study then end up talking about school stuff and etc,especially talking about a particular topic which Miss Yeap finds it amazing of me meeting that person somehow she's super shock can,had a real great time over there ended up reached home at 10pm hah,got scolding by mum becasue of coming home so late,cant blame me for that hah!Gonna have plenty of rest and prepare for tomorrow(:

Before we crash and burn,

2009-04-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

Im super tired today can,after Biology came back for langarts,im real tired after 30minutes of lessson fallen asleep through,heh but didnt get scolded cause most of my classmates were asleep yeah.Then,after school ran around the school to find source for the Service Learning project yeah,but some people just dont have the initative to help watching me doing things,these kind of people cant be bothered.Then,helped on doing the council notice board with the help of some of the sec1s',after that helped Miss Lim with the carnival stuff.Oh shit!IC Project is sucha disater lorh,im struggling to finish things up,hah hope that it could be done tonight yeah(: Hah,people come up to me and said that im HL milk's Girlf haha so cute(:

Yesterday seems like a history,

2009-04-15T05:50:00.000-07:00

Hah,Stayed back in school for Service learning Project yeah.Im so tired okay satyed back together with yingxin's group doing our SL stuff,then i went alone to council room to finish up my poster.Then,today supposingly to have Red-Cross Marching day traning meand yingxin skipped the training today,sad yeah): Then,after finishing a few poster when out to watch Soccer match with Karen Low,heh then to the basketball court hah,then rushed back to find yingxin.She sprayed deoudouran all over me ewww): Hah,then rape her heh,no lah im not so demoralised(:

I havent made anyone cried this year yet,i guess you will be the first one this year,you're such hyprociate person.You started the war and i shall carry it on with you,and it wont stop unless you apologise.Im going to make you sorry for what you did,try me.

Unreasonable):

2009-04-14T03:29:00.000-07:00

Im so fedup right now okay,dont come infuriate me.Okay,dad went to call Mrs Lek up to ask her to cancel my application on going to going SIP XingGang,without me knowing.Because of the stupid overseas trip with the family.This Exchange programme dont come by so easily,he just dosent seems to understand.And being selected is also kinda hard it is base on character and etc.Dad talked to me and i just dont understand why he cancelled the application od me going.So,yeah not gonna talk to talk them till i cool off,or else words that are offensive will come out of my mouth cause when ever im angry these that i didnt mean just popped out.
I hate daddy lah))):

伤心总是难免的,

2009-04-13T04:50:00.001-07:00

haha old blogskin back(:

What luck have i ran into today is such a disgusting day okay saw many creepy crawlings.Hah,on the way to school with dearest met up with a disgusting fat rat,how disgusting,i didnt know that rat chase people until dearest told me.I just step into school then there are people playing with my stupid short ponytail,yeah i know is ugly no choice have to tie it up): Yeah the next creepy crawling is RED ANTS!Can you imagine it is on the flag that im raising eww,crawling onto me then biting me awww!Yeah,had to run to the D&T studio for th mannequin thingy haha,the d&t teacher sympathy me,hah no choice after this week everything is over.After that,talk to the sec1s' cause im damn bored,hah then proceed with World Red-Cross Day training,kinda fun hah they were cute with their mistakes.Hah,then went home at ard 7pm,yeah skipped lunch and dinner i've found my new love HL milk(: Gonna buy plenty of them!

You said move on, where do I go,

2009-04-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

i can really feel that i've lost myself completely,it seems really hard to spend the time now being so alone laugthers,screaming and smiling were all gone.They say everything will be alright dont worry,how i hope things could be more simple.As life moved on more and more meaninglessly,tomorrow there will be a Geography Standardised Test seems like im not in the mood to study but cant possibibly fail right?I guess this is a process of life getting more mood-swings and etc,but i tried to hide it but the more i hide the more obvious it is.I guess through this you lost many things,i guess it is the price to pay for being a grown-up.Hah,enough of crapping got to study for geaography.
Ciaozx(:

It just seems like yesterday,

2009-04-11T04:04:00.000-07:00

Back to school in a saturday morning is such a turnoff.The gate wasnt open at 7.30am i was like so annoyed,cause i thought i was late and i skipped breakfast and rush to school,little do i expect the schoolgate wasnt open,and there was just a huge crowd of people outside beacause of Service Learning&Project love Can.Yeah,haha many people loved the mannequin we did,so proud of our work hah some people took picture so funny it isnt the actual day and there is just great responses(: Hah,finally the hard work that we've put in had finally paid off.I was real tired listening to song and sleeping outside the hall's round table cool isnt it,such a tiring day.Yeah,it seems like many people is sick somehow,i caught flu and cough yeah,Super unlucky lorh supposingly to go out with xinyee&Co. then cant go cause that mother of mine confiscated my money.Im rotting at home,gonna be bored to death can i have some entertainment?

Yeah,i know this song is damn long ago but ilove the story behind this story alot.Does this kind of love exist now adays i doubt so.

Things are back to normal,i guess?

2009-04-10T03:59:00.000-07:00

Thursday:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL YEO,AIDIL&KAREN LOW!

Meet Dearest in the morning,guess what it rain on the way it isnt drizzling but pouring yeah,then there was just a kind soul school girl which offer to share with me an umbrella which i dont find it any difference as im already damn drench form head to toe what's the point of having an umbrella?I looked like some kind of mad woman then comes out from the bathroom with dripping hair,how wonderful.Then,took bus with her to school,yeah went straight away to the toilet to dry my hair,which doesnt make any difference.The first two lessons are super relaxing Mr Leong and Mrs Lee didnt come,yeah i was glad things were back to normal(:

Friday:

HEY,im in the holiday mood(: Yeah,went for breakfast with family,kinda reluctant to go somehow,no choice still have to go.Then,meeetup with dardar,Darling&clement chok to pass the money for the birthday gift i share with them for edwin(: Then,went to meet up with dearest!Went to tampines mall the bus is damn packed with people.Hah,dearest sponsored me with the bus fare and food thanks yeah(: Since a long time,i had an two on two outing with dearest(:

Happy birthday Edwin!

My world turn away

2009-04-07T04:59:00.000-07:00

I think through alot,that've got knock down by a car.I really wondered if i really got knocked down,wouldn't it be great i would just be landed in the hospital in the wards.Amnesia i could just forget everything the unhappiness that im in right now,get a new life,new enviroment&new character.But,it would not be possible i guess i really wanted this to be back to normal its origninal state):

I thought that everything had ended but that was not the case,

2009-04-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

Monday Blues caught me once again,yeah walked to school with dearest many laugther going on it has been a week since i have ever smile or laugh.Morning many people came to me to check out whether i am okay,it seems incredible that news spread so fast that even teachers knew what happen.Yeah,morning assembly at the hall i stack up the chairs and actually drag it to the store room,some sec3s' or sec4s' guys came up to me to help,actually didnt want to carry it to the store it is just that i was in the emotion that i could not take so,venting it out through this.Well,i rejected those guys offer cause seriously i need to vent out my anger.After school,went for lunch with Lesbo at Pizza Hurt.The ambience was great and romantic with just the two of us,lols.Anyways thanks alot Lesbo you cheered me up alot.Took LRT back home saw Farah chat all the way till Rivervale Plaza which is like opposite my house?
I guess we are no longer friends,
thanks alot for all those memories,
i guess i will kept it as a souveniors,
be carry with me through out my life);

This song explains how i feel right now):

Hold on to me and, never let me go

2009-04-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

People im real touched by those tags and smses by you guys.I guess time will heal my emotions and depression,im still not in the mood but people reassured that the bubbly&Hyper faye will come back real soon(: I was really touched by Miss Lim of what she had wrote on msn to me just now,dont worry i will hang on.Thanks alot for the concerns.I splurged my money on a book to cheer myself up.I guess it was quite well spent,tomorrow life would be better i guess.Tomorrow going to walk to school with Dearest and lunch with Backstreet babies♥

Im tired , of giving up all the times

2009-04-04T06:29:00.000-07:00

Didnt sleep for 2days already,problems dosent seems to solved.Who could i really depend on when i fall?Today Evacuation Gold i failed by one component just beacuse of this few days what had happened.I cant blame those problem but myself my mental toughness isnt there,but overall i had did my best,but still i wasnt in the good mood either 6people from my squad took the test 2people manage to pass,i blame myself so much that i had engross myself too much time in Service learning project that i have neglected my Evacuation Gold.No point crying over spilt milk have to try harded next time.Yeah,darling wait for me at tampines mall at 5pm+ i havent eat yet so she accompained me to eat,she cheered me up alot,because of her retardness.Yeah,things were back to the worst once i reached home.I didnt expect you to slap me,i cried tremedously you didnt know what stress im facing now.Just one more time,you wont see me in this house anymore or perhaps you wont even have a daugther like me,cause you dont think you deserve me at all.I told you parents were there to support me,but infact you add on to my stress and even slap me yeah,i fell real hard this time all thanks to you guys):I've crying my hearts out,i didnt seems to help,what's the point guess what my parents say:"you are just gaining sympathy!"i cant believe such things came out from their mouth.I took the courage to face the fact,i didnt runaway but look what i have really got back?

Where were you when i needed you,

at times i really gave up on you,but i

didnt):

I wanna get get back to the old days,

2009-04-03T06:13:00.000-07:00

I am so depressed,Moodless and stressed out these few days.I cried for what's the use the commitment that i have made.I have stayed back for the whole of this week,yet what do i get stressed out every minute.Sine when did i ever pushed the blame to you,if ever i would do that i would not get my self crying every single minute be it after school or during duties.I seriously didnt know how to face you,you mademe change into a person that i could not even recognised,i have lost my myself.My face was moodless,stressed out&depressed no one dares to even joke with me.During duty,i even lost control ended up scolding sec1s' and crying,you would never ever feel that yourself.You still can smile and laugh yourself.On the way back to class,i seriously had lost my contro l bursting into tears.For you,i know that it is not worth it,but what's the use i lost my control.After school,managed to finish up 3 mannequin with the help of many people including Mr Lim thanks alot.Ended up,we screamed and fall out of our friendship i must say we were more than just friends a clique or even i regard as my brother but what has become of us,i dont want to know and those wish to know.I seriously want the old you back,and wanted myself to be back to my ownself.You were the one who back me up,but what has happened i really dont know.I have gave up myself,i thought i could hold my tears and emotion infact i wasnt as strong as what i have expected.

I miss the old you):

If you havent existed in this world,

2009-04-01T04:51:00.000-07:00

31march09,

Today i guess neither my backstreet babiesin the mood right now.But charming baby cheered me up alot in home-economics class yeah.And after school the whole the backstreet babies♥ went to Edgefield Primary school to coach Primary school Kids with Mathematics,yeah those kids were real cute it was fun teaching them.Yeah,on the way back Charming baby,was super harlirious doing his werid poses,Laugh real hard.Yeah,went back to School For SL,then went home with Darling.But,somethings seems to bother me yeah,becames so super low mood yeah):

1April,

Oh gosh people,today is april fool got so annoyed by their stupid jokes.Stayed back for SL,did finish,and yeah played with the pain with backstreet babies♥,thanks for your company babies(:And yeah,You better stop bringing misery to my friend dont take my friendlyness as a way to take advantage.

There isnt anything much i can do

2009-03-30T04:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday morning went out with Karen Low! to study mathematics yeah.Screwed mathematics yeah alot of question i didnt know how to do,haha thanks to karen manage to answer most of them i guess.Yeah,left at about 3.30pm daddy and mummy called Pizza yeah to celebrate my belated birthday sweet yeah.Later my cousin came with his wife,yeah had a heart to heart talk with him.He asked me not to regret the choices that i have made and to cherish my kinship with my family.He told me his personal story of he and his daddy,he regretted that he left home many times and when his dad passed away he finally found out that everything his dad do was for his own good i almost cried.For those words he said,i will cherish my parents you dont know when they will be gone or anything.

I was super moodless today,and yeah im sorry to throw my temper in ASP,i came in after finishing one of the mannequin with less than 5 people help,they went off one by one and ony left two of us.I often blame things to be so unfair,i guess there isnt anything such as fairness in this world you just have to get use to things.Well,im still in a super bad mood,so yeah sorry to throw temper at you guys):

HAPPY FOURTEEN BIRTHDAY TO ME(:

2009-03-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

Picture edited by KarenLow!
HAPPY FOUTEEN BIRTHDAY FAYE LEE(:
Yay,im Fourteen years old already(: Hah,from yesterday 12midnight i have recieved many smses wishes and presents.Thanks lovelyzx for your presents&wishes.I simply love the huge elmo that was given by Karen Ahma,Yingxin Darling,Jaslyn Tan Dardar&Cheryl dearest!Haha,hugged it last night while i was asleep.And manymore lovely presents,i promised that i will cherished it okays.Yeah got hell loads of presents,thanks people(:Yeah went to red-cross campsite early in the morning for Evac (Gold) thought it was boring and yeah it turn out to be quite fun(: Yeah,on the way home can you imagine it my squad mates sang happy birthday to me on the MRT platform,i so touched thanks people(: Went home with my dearest darling Ng Yingxin.Yeah,tomorrow i have a date with KAREN LOW!

Thanks for the presents&Wishes(:

(Not in any order)

Clement,Edwin,Yingxin,JaslynTan,CherylYeo,Jillian!,Hazel!,Weiting,Chingting!AmandaChew,Janis!,Nataile!,JaneToh,Enrica,KarenLow,Juilenoralis,Xiongchang,

Fitzgerald,Nurelisa,JunHao,XinHui,PeiZhen,SitiSa’lldah,Janissa,BenjaminNg,SherylLim!,

CharmaineZheng!,Hidayah,WeiLi,Athira,Cedric,xinyee!,Sybil,Caiyun,Jaslyn.L,CelineTan,

Facebook,KrystalNg,JessicaToh&Decheng.

Happy Teary advance Birthday Celebration(:

2009-03-26T05:24:00.000-07:00

Today i cried during langarts class because of a note.Yeah,Ms Toh actually talked to me and yeah the words she said was seriously motivating.But once she said,it's okay dont hold back your tears.I went crying like a running water tap,Yeah kept myself busy by ranning around the school looking for teachers for the SL project.Okay yah,late at the evening.Recieved an sms by Cheryl that she left home and wanted to meeet me at my house downstairs.Yeah,went down i saw them,i knew it was a plot,i cried when i saw Yingxin&Jaslyn i hugged them,they were the one who wrote the note,i seriously didnt expect this things to happen.Yeah,dont make me cry again lahs,i rather you to forget my birthday than ignoring me.Yeah a BIG BIG Thank You to the people who is in this plan yeah!A super BIG THANK YOU TO:
CHERYLYEO,NGYINGXIN,JASLYNTAN,AMANDACHEW,

ENRICA,ATHIRA,FITZGERALD,
EDWIN&SHAO WEN(:

解释我们的距离,

2009-03-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

Like any other school days it was so damn boring in the first few periods yeah.Until home-economics yeah,it was fun baking cookies especially the whole of the home-economics classroom was full of our voices yeah.Hah,got complain especially when both of us are student leaders yeah.But Mrs Lee was just joking anyways.Yeah,my lesbo is back from Australia yeah miss her alot:D
I love Ng YingXin and Jaslyn Tan Jie Ling♥

All the emptiness inside,

2009-03-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

My sorethroat and flu still havent recover,awww it sucks manzx.Yeah,school was okay till one sec1 boy who had wrecked my day,from far i saw him playing and making a fuss of himself.I just wanted him to stop,guess what he turned a deaf ear and say he cannot hear me.I was all fumed up,ask him to stand up and he refused to,okay he has reached my limit of my endurance.Then,ask Mr Lim ask him to stand up yeah he did.And talked to me,guess what he doesent even gave me the simplest respect by facing me when im talking to me.The sec2 councillor was kinda shock when they saw me scolding that boy yeah,he seriously had a attitude problem to change.Yeah,history class was seriously enjoyable but it ended too quickly.Langarts was a relaxing one i guess,cause Ms Toh said that since it was the last period she shall make it a realxing one.Yeah,i was a good girl that went home straight after school(:

I miss Amanda Chew Jie Min):

一眼瞬間

2009-03-22T04:12:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with this song(:

I would rather remember the pain then to forget you,

2009-03-21T06:54:00.000-07:00

Today i was not my usual-self perhaps it was after yesterday incident,that i didnt really bother to talk to them.Yeah,today there was two people who cheered me up,they were super funny lorh.I cant wait till school reopen,but quite disatarous yeah will be a busy term,many events and things coming up.And yeah,my throat was as sore as the previous day or can i say even worst,but thanks to the strepsils it soothe my throat alot.Was supposed to have a backstreet babies outing but cancelled due to most of the babies had fallen sick im one of them.So my there goes my wrecked day,went out with my family whereby i treated myself invisible didnt want to talk.But something makes me laugh like mad.Had dinner at one vegeterian restaurant which is damn funny at the part when we are ordering our food.Shall not eleborate much yeah.I was charging my phone and then my brother just plucked out my phone from the charger,super pissed off guess what he is smiling at me.This make me laugh and get angry at the same time,lols.

PS/-my brother look super weird in both pictures,hard to explain what went wrong:/

Darling♥,get well and recover soon(:

Memories suppose to fade,

2009-03-20T19:10:00.000-07:00

(Behind my hair looks like ahma:x)
Yesterday i have reflect alot,alot of things was not as what i have expected.The WHY has been floating in my mind.I guess there isnt an asnwer to it.Just like my parents define as failing mathematics as not working hard enough and not enough pratice but i did.Even my teacher could see that i have worked hard.You didnt see me working hard that dosent mean that i never worked hard.I seriously wanted to go back to the time that you really care,to the time that im just a infant or a toodler showering me with care and concern.But,now it could never come true in 8more day it is my birthday i guess you dont even remember.Shall i define you as Typical Parents or you just dont even bother.Time flies in just 8days im a 14year old girl,you told me to be more mature,you mean im still imature.In this holiday i hardly went out with my friends isnt that a sacriface.You say being a councillor are you coping with it well,the thing is that i did pioritise my time.Tears just dosent help,at times that i felt helpless where are you?The only people who are there for me are my cliques&seniors not you.I thank god that im blessed with such nice friends around me.For the next 8days,i hope miricale could happen by you showering with me with care&concerns,is that possible?

I've fallen in your loving hands

2009-03-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

Im back from Red-cross annual camp(:
Day1:
Visited Ju Eng Home,pretty fun.Then,helped out in peeling the garlic.Then,Mr ng says he can see that i dont really do housechores at home.Yeah,quite true.The,had footdrill quite fun.At night we had BBQ,which was quite Fun bonded with alot with the sec1s'.Lim Jun Jie the super cute sec1,even feed me friedrice&mashmallow.
Day2:
Heritage hike was seriously a tired one.Even though my group did not finish all the 7stations,but we did have some workout.We have learnt tent pitching,we have pitch a basha tent.Tent pitching was super fun.The campfire was super duper fun,we are somekind of mad people screaming our lungs out.And sec2s' party with the sec1s'.Then,slept in the basha tent,guess what in 2am plus it was raining and i have to continue to sleep in the basha tent.Lols.
Day3:
Archery was great fun,finally found my talent in playing a sport.I really enjoyed playing archery.Somehow after the camp i have become a bangala ewww,had a sorethroat which hurts l ike hell yeah.
Oh ya it is so going to be an unlucky march28.I have got evac-gold workshop.Which is on my pathetic birthday!Darling says no matter what she will celebrate it with me that is so sweet(:

My tears start to bleed

2009-03-14T20:15:00.000-07:00

I just cant stop missing the IC trip,yesterday Yongfu called with Fitzgerald Chat till late mid-night.They are super funny,which made think of the trip again.I just hope that our class will stick together through the whole of our secondary school years.All those laughters,screaming&Fun are hard to find.One week later,i guess im getting all those hitting on the head again.They say they dont hit girls,they hit mushroom heads.Yah,so these is how i passed my days in school,13more days to my fourteen birthday which is a saturday.So,not looking forward cause saturday no one is free.Mum let me go to exchange school programme to Suzhou,but not sure if darling and dardar is going or not so havent really sign yet.Yeah,super random.Tomorrow im going for camp,see im back from IC trip not long ago and i will be going to camp.I will be on Hiatus from 16-18march so cant celebrate mum's birthday which is on 17march so happy advance birthday mum(: Yeah,havent packed my bag yet,gonna pack soon.Looking forward to the camp somehow.